My heart has been torn off sooo many times...It's in pieces..n aft a whole year..i'm still picking them up one by one trying to stick them together day by day wit every looks tat he gives me..Everytime his eyes meet mine i smile..T.T It's nt a simple courtesy of greeting..it's just..it's smtg wat really means to me. Only i wud noe hw it feels to live without those eyes..cz i honestly...honestly...honestly..did nt fall for him just like tat.. Both him n i noe hw much i thought n hw much courage it took me to actually tell him hw i felt abt him.. He had to force me n trigger me sooo much b4 i told him tat i like him.. It was b'cz it ws nt easy..T.T i thought..i thought he wudnt accept me..i thought i ws nt his type..n i din even noe hw shud a relationship be or wat happens in a relationship.. I even thought tat he wudnt want me cz..i'm nt pretty...n..we're in different religion..n..i dun noe..Bt once i spilled it out..the next second..i was literally closing my eyes n my heart ws pounding so hard tat it cud just burst out off my chest..N his reply ws simply "woooooooooooohoooooooooo" All i ws saying wen i read tat was.. Tis guy is crazy. Tis guy is Definitely crazy. He's out of his mind. Bt hey..we lasted...we really did..for one whole year...Stupid mistakes were made..Many break ups were done..Many arguments occured..many meetings were cancelled..Bt hey..we still held on strong to each other T.T i shudnt hv left him..i really shudnt hv..If i hadnt..none of tis wud hv been bothering him nor me right nw..He almost cried..he held my hand so tight..bt i held my heart stone like T.T I thought it ws the best for both of us baby..i really did.. i even consulted it wit u..we made a promise..I'm sorry baby..I really am..i'm really really sorry baby...i shudnt hv let u go baby..we shud hv just done the studying hard thing by staying together n motivating each other...with love..In tat case...both of us wud hv nt lost anything instead..our love wud hv grown much much stronger as it used to be...T.T