9/11/2011
Two days before i told you everything tat i feel abt you.. I remember right on tis date, two years ago, i ws on phone wit my bestfriend alone in my room, walking back n forth, telling her abt tis strange feeling tat i'm getting on u..haha Of course,she was freaking out. I remember ensuring her tat i wont be "in love" wit you or smtg cz i hv nvr did it b4. N obviously i din even hv the plan to actually tell you all tis at all! I hung up then came online on msn.. Soon aft tat we chatted.. I began to tell you abt ray n tried to give u sum hints on hw i admire ur actions ar skul. Bt still i nvr wanted a relationship between us. It ws totally out of the option. I hated love! N i'm serious. I have never fallen in love b'cz i hv nvr had a good opinion abt any guys. All i noe ws tat everyone is the same. They'll be good the moment u see them, turn out to be the total opposite the moment you noe them.This ws exactly my poin of view. Even wen i felt tat u might be different frm the others, i kept on telling myself tat You'd be the same sooner or later too. I remember constantly murmuring to myself nt to say "i love you" to you. You nt  showing any signs of noticing me just proved it to me tat i'm none other than any other girls tat u've known.. It was hurtful, bt i was very happy by just having you as my best friend. It ws more than wat i cud ever wish for :) .The main reason for me nt to tell you anything was tat.. i rather have you as my friend than a lover if my confession is going to ruin our friendship b'cz u dun feel the same way.