It was just different..Very different.. Things tat u say nw r creating a different feeling in me than before.. Last year, wen u tell me tat u love me, i just tell myself tat u r out of ur mind.. Bt nw wenever u say it, i feel as if it's nt real at all.. I dun noe baby.. Wen i'm very happy u r down abt smtg.. n wen u r happy i'm down abt smtg.. N wen we both r happy, suddenly smtg will happen frm sum1 else. Tat will then bring us both down.. We r still as crazy as before baby..i still do talk a lot, n u still do listen a lot to watever crap tat i talk abt.. Bt before, all i will be thinking abt wen i talk to u is tat wether u r actually listening or not or u got bored n stop listening eventually.. Bt nw, all i think abt wen i talk is tat...is tat if i'm nt wat u expected ur gf to be like or...i'm nt same as..."her"...I dun noe baby.. To be honest..ever since u left me..i've always has tis feeling in me tat..u left b'cz she's better..so i hv to be better than her to be gud enough... Tat is y wenever i talk..i stop n think wether there's smtg running in ur mind like.."she was nt like nish..I miss her" or...just smtg like tat...T.T it hurts to say bt tat is wat i hv been feeling... bt baby..This is the bottom line.. I love you.. I once did. N i nvr stopped.. Tat is y i still hv the same feeling n more for u nw than before.. Bt u r unable to see it cz..cz i'm always asking myself twice...wether i'm going to be left alone again.. if ever i am.. i'm just not gud enough..just not gud enugh for u baby..T.T


In short baby, i hv nvr, n will nvr let anyone to distract my feelings for u. I hv stood up to everyone who hv against it..even zahara.. I hv told her tat no matter wat she does nw is nt going to affect my relationship wit u... i hv told greg tat i love you n no one cn change it. I hv told my frens who said tat u just dun worth all my sufferings tat..u were the one..right into their eyes... I nvr give u up nor our love to anyone baby.. bt i feel tat i'm just giving it up to myself.. I hv the strength to stand up to everyone bt myself..I love you baby..tat's all i cn ever say...believe it or not..i do n i just dun care of wat any1 else say..i just hope tat u feel the same..