2011

It's a  new year, finally i had the thought of updating my blog :) tanks to sum1.. Anyway i was thinking of deleting my blog.. found out there's no use for it anymore. I tink i cn post 1 last thing or 2 b4 i do it.. Life changed. A lot. Things tat i noe tat wud nvr change also have changed... tat includes people.. I find it hard to accept the changes cz for all i noe.. i dun control them anymore. Even the 1 tat i loved... really loved n thought tat he did the same, changed. Nt to blame him for anything.. i told him i'd be fine if he get's sum1 else. It just got worse...i dun noe wat to say anymore.. I feel like i meant ntg to him.. I feel like he just used me... i feel like everything he said ws just for the sake of saying it... Ws i tat bad..? Did i treat u tat badly tat u just cant wait to get over me..? Did u even tink abt me wen u got a girl..? Wen u held her hands..? i dun noe wether u felt all these bt dun tell me u din feel it even wen u kissed her right infront of me T.T tat! tat shattered me into pieces... U thought i din see u doin tat to her..? well u were wrong.. cz i saw it.. T.T i noe tat there were a lot conditions wen we were in relationship.. bt u noe y i was so controlling.. I ws nt able to talk abt it on facebook.. or wit frens.. i din even sit together wit u holding hands laying on ur shoulders while my frens were arn it's b'cz... i wanted u N my frens... Bt nw i cn see tat u're very flexible wit ur partner.. I'm happy for u :) u needed it n i ws nt able to giv it. I'm sorry. I'm writing tis believing tat he wud nt see tis.. nt unless i tell him wic i wont... He will tink tat i nvr update my blog n i'll let him tink tat way.. Let's see how much longer i cn hold on...