Hello everyone...
Love gives bt it also takes. It gives a lot wen it cums to us.. Bt it takes all away wen it leaves us..
Love is not smtg tat we feel by force, it's something tat will just struck us wen we see sum1 for the first time..
It happens wen we first meet sumone n just feel our nerves chilling..palms wet..n wen u speak up..u'll either go out of words or u stammer..
U may seem to be fine wenever the person is nt arn.. until u see urself scanning through the crowd n asking ur frens wether they've seen them anywer..
It makes u go crazy..It makes u go to the edge of all happiness..
It makes u to feel like u r most wonderful person in the entire galaxy..


Wen u walk wit them..u feel the warmth tat u felt wen ur mother held u for u the first time even if the person is not holding ur hand..
Wen u talk to them, u will feel as if u have no idea of wat language they're using even if they r not even talking to u at all...
Wen u stay alone, U will find urself smiling to the person even if they're nower to be found..
U will feel tat ur life wic was once empty is nw Full of complete wonders n joys..


My life was a white paper wic ws suppose to be crumpled n thrown into a bin..bt love drew an amazing, wonderful, beautiful picture on it n made it into a master piece..
The magnificent piece was kept securely in the museum coz it ws priceless...
N nw no one takes a glimpse at it because the ink was a false ink tat disappears after a while..
The paper ws white again..n nw it is found in the bin..crumpled as it ws supposed to be...n back to wer it belongs..

Ohh god u noe wat! I'm giving up! no matter hw hard i try. i just cnt pretend like i'm happy without him. I just love him~! Alot!! A LOT ALOT!

I asked him. Yesterday. I knew i had to. Yesterday afternoon...i had the time of my life. I loved every second of it. He took me to a lot of places. He even gave me a cute teddy key chain while we were having lunch together. It was my happiest day ever.. Bt at the end of the day. All my smile became tears.. I told him tat we cnt be tis way forever. N it just hurt me badly wen i said " I got myself into tis..n nw i hv to get myself out.." I just back off frm his life.. I cnt be wit him.. I just cnt.. Tat's it. My love life was such a failure. 

I dun noe wat's goin on in my life right nw.. He told me tat he loves me..he hugged me..he said things to me again.. He started calling me baby again. Bt i still want to noe wat he wants... I mean, he did tat all to me bt then..he's still wit his girlfriend. I want to noe wat's goin to happen to me.. Am i going to go through tis all over again? I want to ask him..bt i dun noe wat he's answer wud be.. watever it is, I noe wat i hv to do.. I hv to ask him. No matter wat. I cnt be like tis forever.

Yo peeps. Finally i've deleted my previous blog n hv imported all my posts on tis new blog. With tis, none of my friends will nvr get to see the other side of me :D Anyway i really gt a lot to do wit the whole new blog. It needs a complete makeover. First of all, the blog's skin, n layouts n lot other things. Bt no time for tat nw. It's night time, n i hv an AMAZING romantic teenage story book to read. I'm like completely engrossed in the book! It's so my kind of book. Nt too romantic. a bit of thrill. bit of mystery. N it's actually more like a typical teenage girl's diary. It just hv a lot of expressions n descriptions. Just simply love the book. Yea most importantly it hs a love story wic is like a love story tat i've always dreamt abt! It's really nice..hhaaa..... Ok tat's it! no more time to be wasted! i just HAVE to finish up the book by tonight. Bye peeps! gotta go! snap snap! :D

Omg...well smtg really awkward ws happening yesterday.. First of all , boyfren. Ok fine -.-" ex-boyfren. I just had the feeling tat he ws really ignoring me n i just dun seem to find the reason y. So i decided to cum clean wit him. Told him sort of wat i really feel n requested answers. Wen i ws reading his replyi worked  my eyes with a bit of tears. N then received a call wic totally crashed the moment. N it ws my bf. As in my best friend. She just called me up in such a sudden n boom! She asked me a question tat really really quite personal! Well she did warn me tat is ws goin to be a weird n personal question..BT C'MON! i didnt expect tat! -.-" fine..She asked me  wether if've kissed sum1 before!!! >.< ohh man...i just broke down like c'mon two relationship reminders in a day without any gaps?? puh-lease.. Fine..i then i answered her n then she said smtg totally weird wic i totally din expect O.o bt tat  is totally nt wat i mean to say. It's just tat wen we were talking abt the kiss thingy..she said smtg..She said it's actually a joyous feel. The kiss... So yea  it brought back sum memories alright.. N yes as i am a very sensitive person wic is nt recognised by my frens at all, my eyes just well up wit tears when she said joyous..haaa....nvm. Bt then she said smtg else too. she told me tat SHE READ MY BLOG!! URRRGHH!! i felt sooo stupid like DAMN ergh -.-" she ws NT suppose to read my blog..cz it's..it's smtg. It's just tat watever i write in my blog is actually purely wat my heart feels..N i din wish anyone to noe especially my own frens.. I mean i dun mind others looking at it bt nt the ppl arn me. I just felt freaking bad n i ws screaming like hell of course. Then i just started to blurt out tons of reasons bt i stopped wen she said smtg. She said..i kinda feel..ur pain.. Wow ws tat touching or wat...? n yea i ws all teary again..It felt kind of nice to hear tat frm sum1 who is really close to u n finally found out smtg tat i thought she'll go crazy if she sees it. Bt yea..everything ws just fine actually.. Well ii'm soo gonna privatise my blog... At least cover it up frm her.

It feels like it has been years since he has left to overseas...Finally he's coming back today!!! :D I'm so happy.Yea i noe tat his priority goes to his Girlfriend of course..bt yea i dun wanna tink abt tat nw. I just hope i hv at least made him happy a little just a little, so tat he'll tink abt me once in a while.. I had ntg to do with watever tat happened between him n his ex..bt nw i'm  the victim. Was it my fault tat u fell in love wit her again? Was it my fault tat u had to let go of her in the first place? Or was it my fault to have u as my first love wic makes tis wound so hard to heal...? T.T u told me tat u've nvr loved any of ur girlfriends as much as u loved me..bt did u really mean it?? If u did then..y did u fall in love wit sum1 else? U told me tat u want us to get married in future..bt isn't tat wat u told ur girlfriend too...??? So i just din mean anything to u AT ALL right.? Bt i'm nt like u. I'm dumber. Even wen i realise all this pains tat u hv given to me, i'm still standing here. I'm still caring abt u. Everyday since u were away i hv been having dreams tat u hv returned here n came to see me. Tat's b'cz i keep wishing tat u wud do tat. Everyday i spend half of my day inside my heart thinkin of wat will u be doin at tat time. Sometimes even guessing tat u will be thinkin abt me, cz at the back of my mind i noe tat u wont be. Let's just put these aside k.. I just want u to cum back safely. I've been waiting for ur replies since  morning to check wether u've arrived here. Cum fast..pls

He went for holidays to Europe!!! damn i nvr thought i'll miss him! >.< cz i dun talk to him so close anymore bt nw..! god y is tis so hard for me...?! T.T bt i'm glad tat i had the chance to pour at least half of wat i feel abt him to him. I asked him to ask me one question. Just one having in mind tat , tat question is the last thing he cud ask me.. And he asked me y i left him.. To be honest i really cudnt answer him. Maybe for tat moment i was thinking more abt him who is attached to another girl. Bt then, i thought abt it. N i din want to tink tat way. I just wanted to answer him n i did. I told him y.. I told him wat i felt.. It felt gud after letting him noe actually. Bt i cn see tat he cnt change anything nw. I noe tat he felt bad aft wat i said bt ntg cn be changed. Nw for the moral of the story. I miss him..A lot. Just hoping tat he'll enjoy the vacation n return here safely. 

Wake up! Cz Wen u do, I won't be there anymore..